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It’s Not A Love Song

[Chorus]
I wrote a song about you
It’s not a love song
It doesn’t paint you true
But nobody will know that

[Verse 1]
I think I could have been kinder
But I could have been colder
When I was trying to love you
I cut myself on your shoulders

And I remember kissing collarbones
And counting all your freckles
And I remember kissing pictures
And counting all our smiles

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not love if it was just pretend
That’s why this doesn’t count as giving in

[Chorus]
I wrote a song about you
It’s not a love song
It doesn’t paint you true
But nobody will know that

[Verse 2]
Your hand in my back pocket
That’s where you said you’d leave it
And I, walked away feeling high
But then you removed it
And I got to thinking
Maybe that was just another lie

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s not love if it was just pretend
That’s why this doesn’t count as giving in

[Chorus]
I wrote a song about you
It’s not a love song
It doesn’t paint you true
But nobody will know that

[Verse 3]
So now we’re worse than strangers
Cause we never knew better
I’m not the one who did you wrong
You broke my heart first
So don’t hate me
Cause I dragged yours through the dirt

Maybe I was too insecure
Always thinking of you
Thinking of her

[Pre-Chorus]
Maybe it’s love cause it wasn’t pretend
So maybe I was wrong and now I’m giving in

[Chorus]
I wrote a song about you
It’s not a love song
It doesn’t paint us true
But nobody will know that
But nobody will know that

[Outro]
Oh this song’s for you
And everybody knows that

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I Am Not His Savior

She lies she lies –
Tell me you love me.
She smiles she smiles –
Tell me you’re happy.
She cries she cries –
Baby, I’m sorry.
She tries to feel things that were never there
–A well of emotions lying untouched behind her ribs –
But the well is empty, perhaps it was never full;
It cannot save a field of dying crops and it cannot save the man.
She watches him drown before her, arms treading water,
His mouth barely dragging in air.
She has done this to him, but maybe he has done it to himself.
The sand of the shore feels wet and smooth beneath her feet, begging her to come out, to save the dying man.
The water froths violently at her ankles –
She doesn’t know how to swim, doesn’t know how to save him, wishes he had never asked her to.
The moon pushes the tide and the tide pushes her.
She is caught in this war that she never asked to fight –
Her mind wants to give in but her heart remains unmoved in her chest.
The moon pushes the tide and the tide pushes her,
But she is a wall of stone; she will not be moved.
Baby, I’m sorry –
She cries she cries.
Tell me you’re happy –
She frowns she frowns.
Tell me you love me –
She speaks the truth.
She opens her mouth and the tide rushes in, attempting to drown her words.
But when the waves recede, they bring with them the turning of the tide, the setting of their sun.
The man is waiting.
Tell me you love me –

…No.

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Two Ghosts

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Verse 1]
You left your mark on my body
You left your mark on my heart
Now I’m trying to tear it out
But it’s just leaving me scarred
I’ve got all this tissue
Healed over with time
They said time would fix this
But the scar’s still bleeding

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Verse 2]
He’s speaking to me in a foreign tongue
I curve my lips and I nod along
He’s touching me and his hands slip right through
He’s singing melodies but my heart’s in a different tune
It’s still beating to the rhythm of you

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Bridge]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Why aren’t we together?
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Our love died, so we said this is better
We survived, so we wrote it in letters
Shook hands, said that it was a pleasure
Smiles tight but we stretched them like leather
It was dark days and we gave in to pressure
I’m not sure, not sure this is better
But I guess desperate times called for desperate measures

[Outro]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Hating each other
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Missing each other
Two ghosts in different bedrooms
I was never a ghost when I was with you

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Covet

I stared into your window hoping—was it hope?
To catch a glimpse, something real.
Your soul, perhaps?
The curtains fluttered, tiny bird wings–caught and touched and flew.
Startled, you shut the window—but it’s cold outside.
Won’t you let me in?
My breath fogs the glass—close, but not enough to touch.
Did I scare you?
Windows locked, all boarded up. No cracks or crevasses, not a space for me to slip inside.
Your door doesn’t open for me.
I stared into your window hoping—was it hope?
To catch a glimpse of your world, something real.
Your soul I found, was it love, perhaps?
Or simply, everything, that my world lacked.

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Loved You Dangerously

[Verse 1]
Seeing you with him
Oh, it messes me up
Knowing you could do without me
So, I’m the one you gave up

Maybe I’m the fool
I should have known that
If he ever called your name
You’d go running right back

[Pre-Chorus]
I can see it on your face
I can hear it in your words
You’re thinking of his smile
Thinking of his curves
Thinking bout how he heals you
Bout how it never hurts

[Chorus]
But if it never hurts
Is it really real?
Can you get high
Without the pain
Can you be happy
If you’re never sad or lonely
Maybe he’s better for you than me
But baby I loved you dangerously
Baby I loved you with all of me

[Verse 2]
In a city this size
I should never see your face
But I still go to those places
Where they know us by name
And they tell me they’ve seen you
Another man on your arm
Maybe I’m addicted to the pain
Cause it reminds me you’re gone

[Pre-Chorus]
I saw it on your face
I heard it in your words
You were thinking of his smile
Thinking of his curves
Thinking bout how he healed you
Bout how it never hurt

[Chorus]
But if it never hurts
Is it really real?
Can you get high
Without the pain
Can you be happy
If you’re never sad or lonely
Maybe he’s better for you than me
But baby I loved you dangerously
Baby I loved you with all of me

[Verse 3]
Your friends tell me you’re happy
I’m truly glad for that
I could never stand, to see you cry
But it was when I knew you loved me
When there were tears in your eyes

They tell me you don’t cry for him
Makes me wonder why

[Pre-Chorus]
Can he see it on your face?
Can he hear it in your words?
Are you thinking of my smile
Thinking of my curves
Thinking bout how I healed you
After every time it hurt

[Chorus]
Cause if it never hurts
Is it really real?
Can you get high
Without the pain
Can you be happy
If you’re never sad or lonely
Maybe he’s better for you than me
But baby I loved you dangerously
Baby I loved you with all of me