I Am Not His Savior

She lies she lies –
Tell me you love me.
She smiles she smiles –
Tell me you’re happy.
She cries she cries –
Baby, I’m sorry.
She tries to feel things that were never there
–A well of emotions lying untouched behind her ribs –
But the well is empty, perhaps it was never full;
It cannot save a field of dying crops and it cannot save the man.
She watches him drown before her, arms treading water,
His mouth barely dragging in air.
She has done this to him, but maybe he has done it to himself.
The sand of the shore feels wet and smooth beneath her feet, begging her to come out, to save the dying man.
The water froths violently at her ankles –
She doesn’t know how to swim, doesn’t know how to save him, wishes he had never asked her to.
The moon pushes the tide and the tide pushes her.
She is caught in this war that she never asked to fight –
Her mind wants to give in but her heart remains unmoved in her chest.
The moon pushes the tide and the tide pushes her,
But she is a wall of stone; she will not be moved.
Baby, I’m sorry –
She cries she cries.
Tell me you’re happy –
She frowns she frowns.
Tell me you love me –
She speaks the truth.
She opens her mouth and the tide rushes in, attempting to drown her words.
But when the waves recede, they bring with them the turning of the tide, the setting of their sun.
The man is waiting.
Tell me you love me –

…No.

What You Give

We are so innocent you and I
Untouched by the worst of the world.
Give it time—
It will swallow us whole.
Give it hate—
It will devour us.
Give it fear—
We are already gone.
But give it love,
And we will live an eternity.

Two Ghosts

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Verse 1]
You left your mark on my body
You left your mark on my heart
Now I’m trying to tear it out
But it’s just leaving me scarred
I’ve got all this tissue
Healed over with time
They said time would fix this
But the scar’s still bleeding

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Verse 2]
He’s speaking to me in a foreign tongue
I curve my lips and I nod along
He’s touching me and his hands slip right through
He’s singing melodies but my heart’s in a different tune
It’s still beating to the rhythm of you

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Bridge]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Why aren’t we together?
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Our love died, so we said this is better
We survived, so we wrote it in letters
Shook hands, said that it was a pleasure
Smiles tight but we stretched them like leather
It was dark days and we gave in to pressure
I’m not sure, not sure this is better
But I guess desperate times called for desperate measures

[Outro]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Hating each other
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Missing each other
Two ghosts in different bedrooms
I was never a ghost when I was with you

Covet

I stared into your window hoping—was it hope?
To catch a glimpse, something real.
Your soul, perhaps?
The curtains fluttered, tiny bird wings–caught and touched and flew.
Startled, you shut the window—but it’s cold outside.
Won’t you let me in?
My breath fogs the glass—close, but not enough to touch.
Did I scare you?
Windows locked, all boarded up. No cracks or crevasses, not a space for me to slip inside.
Your door doesn’t open for me.
I stared into your window hoping—was it hope?
To catch a glimpse of your world, something real.
Your soul I found, was it love, perhaps?
Or simply, everything, that my world lacked.

Honey

[Intro]
Don’t make me break your heart
Don’t make me break your heart

[Verse 1]
When you touch me
I feel it to my feet
When you love me
You love unconditionally
When you mold me
You try so hard
But I’m not the kind of girl you make into art

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve got sharp edges
So be careful not to cut yourself
I’ve got rough hands
So be careful to brace yourself

[Chorus]
You called me honey
But I’m more like vinegar
I burn your nose and your throat
And you try to speak love
But I just make you choke
And I could try to be sweet
Try to be all that you need
But that’s not me

[Post-Chorus]
Baby
Don’t make me break your heart
Don’t make me break your heart

[Verse 2]
I’ll kiss your mouth
And say I’d rather be alone for the night
I’ll hold you close
And say I don’t need you in my life
And all the ones before you
Said I was hard to please
That I’ve got a stinging tongue
And I don’t mean to be but I can be so mean

[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve got sharp edges
So be careful not to cut yourself
I’ve got rough hands
So be careful to brace yourself

[Chorus]
You called me honey
But I’m more like vinegar
I burn your nose and your throat
And you try to speak love
But I just make you choke
And I could try to be sweet
Try to be all that you need
But that’s not me

[Post-Chorus]
Baby
Don’t make me break your heart
Don’t make me break your heart

[Bridge]
I’m not sweet like honey
Maybe if I were you’d always love me
I’m not sweet like honey
Maybe if I were you’d always love me
I’m not sweet like honey
(My only guarantee)
Baby, I’ll make it sting

Sharp edges
Rough hands x2

[Chorus]
You called me honey
But I’m more like vinegar
I burn your nose and your throat
And you try to speak love
But I just make you choke
And I could try to be sweet
Try to be all that you need
But that’s not me

[Outro]
Baby, I’m not sweet like honey
Baby, I’ll just leave a sting