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November 20, 2018November 20, 2018

Money

[Verse 1]
Before the fall
I had it all
Had my heart
And had my soul
And I, I was still human

Before the fall
I had it all
Halo of gold
Wings like honey
And oh, I never cared about money

That green did something
Something mean to me
I turned into an animal
Only thought about one thing

[Chorus]
Money
Money money
Money
Money money
Forgot my family
Forgot my honey
Ran to the land of rich and
Money
Money money
Money money
Give me that honey honey
Green like money money
Give me that honey honey
Green like money money

[Verse 2]
And they don’t tell you
What a devil you’ll become
Cause once you touch that green
That’s when you’re on the run
Cause you can’t sleep
And you can’t eat
All that’s on your mind
24/7 all the time

[Bridge]
Who needs family
When I got all these dollar bills with me x3

[Outro]
Who needs family
When I got all these dollar bills with me
They keep me company
All this money
Keeps me company
And I swear I swear
I’m not lonely
Who could be lonely
When they’ve got this much money
Honey, who could be lonely
When they’ve got all this money

November 13, 2018

I Am Not His Savior

She lies she lies –
Tell me you love me.
She smiles she smiles –
Tell me you’re happy.
She cries she cries –
Baby, I’m sorry.
She tries to feel things that were never there
–A well of emotions lying untouched behind her ribs –
But the well is empty, perhaps it was never full;
It cannot save a field of dying crops and it cannot save the man.
She watches him drown before her, arms treading water,
His mouth barely dragging in air.
She has done this to him, but maybe he has done it to himself.
The sand of the shore feels wet and smooth beneath her feet, begging her to come out, to save the dying man.
The water froths violently at her ankles –
She doesn’t know how to swim, doesn’t know how to save him, wishes he had never asked her to.
The moon pushes the tide and the tide pushes her.
She is caught in this war that she never asked to fight –
Her mind wants to give in but her heart remains unmoved in her chest.
The moon pushes the tide and the tide pushes her,
But she is a wall of stone; she will not be moved.
Baby, I’m sorry –
She cries she cries.
Tell me you’re happy –
She frowns she frowns.
Tell me you love me –
She speaks the truth.
She opens her mouth and the tide rushes in, attempting to drown her words.
But when the waves recede, they bring with them the turning of the tide, the setting of their sun.
The man is waiting.
Tell me you love me –

…No.

November 6, 2018

What You Give

We are so innocent you and I
Untouched by the worst of the world.
Give it time—
It will swallow us whole.
Give it hate—
It will devour us.
Give it fear—
We are already gone.
But give it love,
And we will live an eternity.

October 30, 2018October 30, 2018

Two Ghosts

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Verse 1]
You left your mark on my body
You left your mark on my heart
Now I’m trying to tear it out
But it’s just leaving me scarred
I’ve got all this tissue
Healed over with time
They said time would fix this
But the scar’s still bleeding

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Verse 2]
He’s speaking to me in a foreign tongue
I curve my lips and I nod along
He’s touching me and his hands slip right through
He’s singing melodies but my heart’s in a different tune
It’s still beating to the rhythm of you

[Chorus]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Trying to remember the steps
Trying to remember what love is
Trying to understand why I love him less

[Bridge]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Why aren’t we together?
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Our love died, so we said this is better
We survived, so we wrote it in letters
Shook hands, said that it was a pleasure
Smiles tight but we stretched them like leather
It was dark days and we gave in to pressure
I’m not sure, not sure this is better
But I guess desperate times called for desperate measures

[Outro]
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Hating each other
We’re two ghosts in different bedrooms
Missing each other
Two ghosts in different bedrooms
I was never a ghost when I was with you

October 23, 2018

Covet

I stared into your window hoping—was it hope?
To catch a glimpse, something real.
Your soul, perhaps?
The curtains fluttered, tiny bird wings–caught and touched and flew.
Startled, you shut the window—but it’s cold outside.
Won’t you let me in?
My breath fogs the glass—close, but not enough to touch.
Did I scare you?
Windows locked, all boarded up. No cracks or crevasses, not a space for me to slip inside.
Your door doesn’t open for me.
I stared into your window hoping—was it hope?
To catch a glimpse of your world, something real.
Your soul I found, was it love, perhaps?
Or simply, everything, that my world lacked.